or just procrastinating...

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
-- a couple of them do



Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips?
-- yes




Have you kissed someone in the past week?
-- yes



Have you ever broken someones heart?
-- yea



Who do you tell the most to?
-- Ashley and Catty, they're my diaries



Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
-- yush!


What do you carry with you at all times?
-- cell phone & deodorant



Will your next kiss be a mistake?
-- nope.



When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
-- before he died..



Do you know anyone with cancer?
-- yes, a very close friend of mine and my mother



Who was the last person you talked to in person?
--Andy

Did you speak to your mother today?
--yea


Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
-- duh!



Have you lost friends in the past 3 years?
--yes, quite a few.




Do you drink Tea?
-- I love tea.



Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
-- hmm..it depends, sometimes I share them, sometimes I don't. Depends on who the person is, and what feeling it is.



Things about the opposite sex you notice first?
-- eyes and attitude



Are you happy?
-- most definitely




Is your room clean?
-- yes, surprisingly.



Has anyone got on your nerves lately?
-- a little.


Do you bite your fingernails?
-- no



Do you watch a lot of TV?
-- not really, I prefer to read rather than anything else


Are you tan?
-- yea, but it's starting to fade



Where is your sister right now?
--Her house sleeping more than likely, she had a big day today, lol


Do you want someone back in your life?
-- yes, I wish I could have soo many people back.. but that's never going to happen, so I drown myself in their memory, and hope that they're in a better place, and they're all pain free



Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest/fastest for?
-- I'm still with him



Who do you trust the most in your life?
-- My best friend Ashley. I HAVE put my life in her hands before, I'd do it again without hesitation.



Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
-- YES!!!



Where did you sleep last night?
-- in his arms



Did you have a good day yesterday?
-- yeeeeeeh !

Do you hate anyone?
-- I used to, but I could care less about any of them now. They'll get what they deserve.



Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
-- many times, from a drunk stupor, low blood sugar, and from large amounts of blood loss (aka suicide attempts)

btw, i think I could live off of Nachos and Cheese, forreal.




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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

"she didn't know how she was supposed to act with the other servants, but she wanted to make friends.
"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
What's there?
Andy's back


3.
What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Olympics


4.
Without looking, guess what time it is:
uhh...10:45??

5. Now look at the clock.
What is the actual time?
11:18...lol

6.
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Soft breathing...

7.
When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
about an hour ago, went to my car to get my book


8.
Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
On the computer? I was looking at my friends school schedules

9.
What are you wearing?
underwear and a baggy t-shirt

10.
Did you dream last night?
Yes, and it was FUCKED UP!!!


11.
When did you last laugh?
When my cat, Mimzy failed trying to jump out of the closed window.

12.
What is on the walls of the room you are in?
pictures of family and friends, drawings my little cousins did for me when they were down, random notes that I made when I didn't have a piece of paper, signed Johnny Depp poster, more Johnny Depp movie posters, and shelves with little trinkets on them.

13.
Seen anything weird lately?
hmm..not lately..

14.
What do you think of this quiz?
It's not really a quiz...

15.
What is the last film you saw?
Mirrors...

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
THE WORLD!!!!!!

but seriously, I'd buy ALL the guns in the world and replace them with cute fluffy teddy bears


17.
Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I lick the spine of new books...


18.
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would get rid of all evilness


19.
Do you like to dance?
Not in front of people


20.
George Bush:
five more months...just five more months...

21.
Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
hmm...Adeline Marie

22.
Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Constance Alexander

23.
Would you ever consider living abroad?
yea

24.
What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?
I would tell him he's nothing but a big meanie and he should be ashamed of himself for letting mankind get this out of control.

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[x] You own more than one credit card
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[totally will when i can] You vote in every election
[heheh] You can cook for yourself
[x] You think politics are exciting

[does not showing up at all count?] You show up for work late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket
[totally laughable.] You've never gotten detention
[] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[rather not walk at all lol] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up I CAN USE IT IN A SENTENCE TOO!!! "She kept giving us more reasons to question her credibility"
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[x] You can mow the lawn
[] You study when you have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[x] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[] Your favourite kind of food is take-out
[] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[depends on what store..] You can go to a store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick

[] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party
[x] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job (yea, but I've come to realize that once you're over the age of like..ten everyone expects you to act more mature..assholes)
[] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day (almost everyday)
[x] You have been outside of your city 3 or more times
[x] You make your own bed every morning (shocker, isn't it? lol)
Grand Total: 22 (OH THE HORROR!!!!)

no joke. ^^ Completely and utterly in love, there is NO other, and since he wants to get married soon after I turn 18, and I want a couple years, this is perfect. :happy: be happy for me ^^

1. Do you snore?
"Just loud enough so you know I'm there" quote from Michigan family ^^

2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
lovah, but I do like to argue, and have a good fight every once in awhile

3. What's your worst fear?
being trapped within my own body

4. As a kid, were you a Lego maniac?
nah, easily bored.

5. What do you think of reality TV?
some is good, some is just retarded

6. Do you chew on your straws?
yea..i tend to bite it while I'm drinking out of it

7. Were you a cute baby?
ADORABLE!!! Just too small, for real.

8. Is the single life for you?
well...it was..but not anymore!!!

9. What color is your keyboard?
white and pink ^^

10. Do you sing in the shower?
yup yup!

11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
I will, dammit!!

12. Any secret talents?
yea..but I can't tell...

13. What's your idea vacation spot?
anywhere, other than here

14. Can you swim?
I love swimming

16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko"?
I have no idea, but it sounds familiar

17. Do you give a damn about the ozone?
I give a big damn about the ozone dammit!!! ><

18. which do you perfer more, hot or cold weather?
Cold

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
Well..sorta..usually after 'Y' I'm stuck, lol

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
oh yeah

21. Are you an only child?
noo, I gots a twin sissy, and three older brothers ^^

22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
electronic..much easier and faster, without much effort. But mechanical is the best!

23. What's your stand on hunting?
Don't really mind it, what people don't understand is if people didn't hunt for sport, the animal population would increase to severe numbers, and would take over the continent (no joke). And plus, the sport is very contained, its not like you can go out, shoot as many squirrels/deer/geese/etc and stop when you've gotten your fill, no, there's a limit, and if you breech that limit, you definitely get fined, and you can get your license taken away....and deer sausage tastes sooo freakin goood!!

24. Is marriage in your future?
most definitely

25. Do you like your handwriting?
I could care less, I've come to terms with it.

26. What are you allergic to?
certain medications

27. When was the last time you said "I love you"?
like..ten minutes ago..

28. Is Tupac still alive?
only when he wants to be

29. Do you cry at weddings?
SQUEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

30. How do you like your eggs?
fried

31. Are blondes dumb?
.....WELL BRUNETTES AND REDHEADS CAN BE DUMB TOO DAMMIT!!!!

32. Where does the other sock end up?
Since I rarely wear any shoe that requires a sock, I hardly ever wear socks anymore...so they all end up in the same place--bottom of the drawer.

33. What time is it?s
5:44 pm

34. Do you have a nickname?


35. Is McDonald's disgusting?
no sir!

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
a couple hours ago

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
both, but I take showers to get clean, and baths to relax

38. whats your hair color?
blond at the moment

39. Do you like having your neck kissed?
yess

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
no, I love the dark

41. What are you addicted to?
Andy
ketchup
chocolate
cigarettes
brushing my teeth

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
...neither...

43. Can you crack your neck?
no

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
ohh yes, many many many times!!

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
ok first, that's weird...since i said i was addicted to brushing my teeth...and, five times so far

46. Is drug free the way to be?
if that's the way you want it, I suppose..but out of all the people I know, the most up tight, rude, close minded, judgmental people have been drug free people. >< assholes.

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
usually, yes

48. What color are your eyes?
blue

50. Do you like your life?
yea

51. Who's better: Stone Cold or The Rock?
The Rock, cuz he's hotter

52. Are you psychic?
yush, but I figure that almost everyone has their moments. My most powerful thing is I can feel when someone has good/bad intentions, or is a good/bad person....but I tend to ignore this cuz I want to believe that everyone is good, and no one has cruel intentions, and this, of course, gets me in a lot of pickles.

54. Do you play any instruments?
lol, I could if I put my mind to it, but I have a rather short attention span, and get bored easily.

55. Have you ever stolen money?
don't need to..I'm good at tricking people out of it yes, it is something to be proud of, dammit!!

56. Can you snowboard?
without breaking a bone? ha! no. I have tried, and I have failed.

57. Do you like camping?
LOVE IT!!!

58. Do you snort when you laugh?
not normally but...there was this one time... that's a memory!

59. Do you believe in magic?
Yush, I do

60. Are dogs a man's best friend?
yea

61. You believe in divorce?
Not Catholic, lol, so yea, I don't care. But I don't plan on getting married if I don't think it'll last.

62. Can you do the moonwalk?
lol, my old friend Kyla and I made a fucked up (aka blond) version of it

63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
Yea...

64. Is it cold outside today?
NOO!!! IT'S SOOOO HOT!!!! That's why I'm INSIDE

65. What was the last thing you ate?
IMO's pizza

66. Do you wear nail polish?
yea, I love nail polish

67. What do you like best in the opposite sex?
Weellz, I'd have to list everything in my FIANCE! ..and that's a lot of things soo...

68. What's the most annoying TV commercial?
lawyer/doctor/new medications

69. Do you shop at American Eagle?
ew, no

70. Favorite song at the moment?
hmm...Check Yes Juliet by We Are Kings

71. When was the last time you had sex?
Don't even get me started! ><

72. Do you like your job?
yea, I don't have to go in and I still get paid, lol

73. Do you like your classes in school?
don't have any anymore

74. How do you like your meat cooked?
all the way

75. Do you like these surveys?
yea..lol..i do

76. Last movie you saw in a theater?
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2

(AND I DONT CARE THAT ITS A LITTLE KID MOVIE!!! STILL LOVED IT DAMMIT!)

77. Whats your favorite animal?
Tigers

78. Do you watch anime? If so what is your favorite?
I don't watch it anymore

79. Do you know any forms of fighting?
heheh, the old girlie fight fashion works for me!! Pull the hair, scratch the eyes out, I don't care, it's a bad ass way of fighting, you can do some serious damage.

80. How are you?
happy

81. What do you think about having children?
im having some, no matter what. And if I start having them when I'm still young, I want to have a dozen, literally, like my grandmother.

82. What do you think of the one that tagged you?
heheh, I declared myself tagged, and I think I'm the bombette!! lol

Now I tag...
if you wish to be deemed tagged, than go for it ^^

Soo, my birthdays in three days. Yea, I'm excited but I got to thinkin about different things. Like how things never turn out how you plan. Like one minute you have your whole life planned out and everything, and then you change your mind..Like you are thinking totally differently than you did a month before..

I have just recently understood the reality that your life can change in a blink of an eye.. I mean I have known that things always change but its never hit me as hard as now.

It seems like I have always been in a hurry to grow up, to just start my life, like i have been going nowhere fast. but now looking back i miss the days before all that. Back then we didn't worry about life or where we were going or where we were gonna be in the next year or how things would turn out, we just lived life by the day, trying not to be bored, not considering what could happen or anything.. We had a lot of fun, and we weren't burdened with all kinds of worthless worries like we are now.. You know looking back now those were the best days of my life. Now im just trying to find a way back to that or even a glimpse of how things were.

I keep fighting the inevitable, which is that my life is changing. Every part of it, the people the environment... And all I keep thinking is that I'm running out of time..It's like, I've spent the majority of my childhood trying to grow up, on becoming an adult. But now that I'm closer to being an actual adult, I want to be a teenager again. I want to...live, before all the responsibilities and burdens of being an adult interfere with that...

And now I feel like I'm going to cry because of all that I've missed out on in life. I'm not scared of growing up, It's just..now I'm being rushed to it, and I'm not ready anymore. I used to be, but now I'm not...I want to go back to those carefree days...especially now that I remember very clearly what they were like.

and now, all those stupid decisions and mistakes I made when I was younger are looked at differently. Everyone expects a more mature person now, but, I've been too responsible and mature for too long. I remember what it was like before, and I..I want that back..I want my old friends back..I want our crazy parties, our late night runs, our laughs, our talks..I want it all back..

You guys don't understand how different I was then, and how different life was..Even though there was still a lot of bullshit and drama and pain, none of that mattered then, because I had my friends to lean on, to have a good time with and forget about all that..and now..theres no time for fun, cuz im too busy growing up!!


Does it make me a bad person to want all that back? Am I wrong? Should I ignore all that I yearn for, and continue growing up? What's so fucking great about being an adult anyway?!?!?

I dont think i will have any answers to my questions any time soon.. I guess all that comes with age and experience..But I do know that I am going to have to grow up sooner than I want, and no one likes being alone and I keep thinking that I want someone to rescue me but i know that i have to do that myself. I want to be strong and independent but everybody needs a friend once in awhile right?

ok so first things first, this past weekend my friends and I had a reunion party, fun as hell, I love everyone who was there (minus Jon). But we were all reminded why we hate Dupo (small town we all used to live in together). Too many secrets, too many fake people *coughJoncough*, too many asswipes who think its OKAY to rape my best friend *coughjoncough*, and waaaay too much drama. I'm glad we all got out before it started affecting us...too much...

and everyone said the city was worse, pssh, whatever.
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second-- i made a discovery that is going to shatter the food industry. fruity pebble sandwich, dipped in ranch dressing mixed with taco sauce..yum.
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and lastly--

tagged me....*swears revenge*

1. Post these rules.
2. People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3. Tag six people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs(<-----EVIL RULE!!!! >< must think of new revenge plot)

1.)I run into things a lot...and then apologize to whatever it was I ran into.

2.)I love being held, and I have a hard time going to sleep if I'm alone.

3.)I hate being told no/being denied something

4.)I understood that duct tape commercial the FIRST time I saw it *is very very proud of self*

5.)I have a lot of weird fears, like im scared of big open spaces(like looking out at the ocean, or the universe), and falling off the earth. And I'm not scared of the ocean when I'm in it, I'm scared of whats in the ocean with me, if you know what im saying.

6.)If my emotions where a roller coaster, People wouldn't survive it...That's why no one plans to make my emotions into a roller coaster..

7.)If it was me against Voldemort, it wouldn't take seven books to finish the motherfucker off...OMG I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING!!!! Seven horcruxes/seven school years/seven books...do you think she did that on purpose?!?!?!??!! O_o

8.)Even though I love getting stuff, I prefer gifts that come from the heart, rather than expensive crap. Like I'd prefer a friendship bracelet you made yourself rather than a thousand dollar diamond bracelet.

now...tagging...